In search

I am lost if I am a guide,
Divorced if I have a bride;
If I talk sense, I am insane,
There is success, but in vain.

I can walk but there's no way,
I have words but nothing to say;
Where do I head, I don't know,
Why's there darkness when light does glow?

Why's there pain when there's no heal,
Why's there greed when there's nothong to steal?
I know I can't be weak when I fight,
But something holds me back and tight.

Why do I climb if I can't jump?
When I should work I am in a slump;
I am not what I am if I can't be me,
I can't be sad in the times of bonhomie.